So we are at the beginning of a new year, well two weeks in but close enough. That sentiment is also how I would describe 2013, “meh close enough”, and I think it’s the reason why one year later I’m mostly in the same spot.
Yes there have been some accomplishments but my novel remains stalled and as you can see I am not exactly hogging bandwidth with all my blog posts since October. While my reader is probably wondering why this wasn’t titled “I hate myself” and concludes with an empty bottle of pills don’t fret, it hasn’t come to that but I do believe in being honest about my work progress this year.
Speaking of which I got some of my first compliments on my writing in my job as journalist, it felt great but I’ll be honest, it made me very nervous. I am completely aware that I am totally unprepared for the negativity that is sure to follow the success I’ve been promising for the last few years. I’ve got to remember to breathe and not look up the negative posters pictures and say the worst thing I can think of.
There are lots to talk about now in the media and elsewhere but I think this blog is going to take a new direction. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and evaluating my work, what it says and what it does to me. As satisfying as it is to point out the hypocrisies of people like Kanye West it’s not changing anything, and truthfully we’re all shitty in one way or another plus why get furious with someone you will never meet? Some take it to a new level but if you are going to attack others you better be ready to face it yourself (pay attention people attacking free speech)
There will still be plenty of opinion, media stories and commentary on the information but instead it will be about what’s important, or at least important to me. It’s also hard to ignore the fact that some of the greatest agents of change were those that hid the lessons in stories.
P.S. This post was literally as rough draft as it gets. Aside from grammar and readability changes nothing stylistic has been touched.